So disturbed

 Yesterday's Supreme Court decision, in my opinion, is the prelude to the demise of Democracy. It opens the door and pats a dictator on the back as he walks in. So do what you want, no more checks and balances, no punishment for criminal behaviors.

 It will accept imprisonment of proported enemies. It will accept the assassination of dissenting parties. It will allow theft and graft.

 It will not allow for Free Speech of it's citizens. 

It will be the destruction of our constitution. It will be the end of our almost 250 years of Democracy.

So, for all you MAGAs out there, who wave flags and call yourselves patriots, you are the antithesis of freedom loving Americans. You support a man determined to be a dictator and destroyer of Democracy.  Either you are so stupid that you don't truly understand what will happen, or you don't care. You somehow believe that being one of his accolytes will benefit you in the future. Well, the last laugh will be on you. After the election you'll be so much leftover balloons and Trump flags. He has used you, and will forget you, you are a means to an end. Whatever befalls the rest of the country will also happen to you, your vote won't make you exempt.

I realize that Biden is older by 3-4 years. But he has steadfastly supported Democracy and the people of the United States for 50 years. His oath of office means something to him. The only person Trump supports is himself. And take a moment and listen to one of Trump's rambling speeches. Is he really any better a choice cognitively or in respect to advanced age? Personally I think all of us would have been much better off with 2 younger candidates but that didn't happen. If you vote Republican you are casting a vote for Democracy's end. If you believe that you will have a merry and bright life in a dictatorship you're as dumb as a rock.

Kelly 

A watched pot ⚠️🌡️🧯

 Starring at the pot of water, waiting for it to boil. Just standing there feeling frustration growing. Wondering if I'll come to a boil before the water does.

My surgery was scheduled for June 5th. I show up for the pre-surgery anesthesia screening to find out that everything has been cancelled. I'm not the only one, all of the doctor's surgeries were cancelled. I call the office to find out he had an emergency and had transferred 20 patients, including me, to another doctor. I've waited 15 days and the new doctor's office has not called. This was supposed to be a surgery that had to happen ASAP. So I called my doctor's office to ask what the heck was going on. They don't know either. So I wait simmering.

The endocrinologist I was referred to... I have little faith in because his office has plenty of people but claim to be understaffed. Packed waiting room, signs advising that a one to two hour wait was expected everyday. They failed to give me all the paperwork he ordered and I've called twice to get them fix it. Again, unresponsive office staff. I'm fed up. If there is no follow through I'm cancelling my next appointment and finding a new specialist. Oh, and I'll review online exactly why I don't recommend.

I've experienced good medical care, so I know when I'm not receiving it. For the most part I've been very happy with the Mercy physicians. My original vascular physician is not affiliated with Mercy, but the coordination of testing required Mercy to follow through, and they did. These two new physicians are not the same as what I have previously experienced.

Funny how something like this makes you feel alone, unseen, ignored. I'm way too much a feisty old bitch to allow it to continue. Nobody is going to isolate me. I'll roar to be heard and I'll do a nasty review if they continue to ignore me. I'll find replacements for mediocre service.

I'm almost at a boil. 15 days and counting.

****Update****

I fired Dr Moosa and his office of incompetent associates. I'm not going back to that cattle chute.

I haven't yet found a new Endocrinologist. I'm still on permanent hold for vascular surgery. 

I'm fed up, mostly because I have experienced good medical care and I'm not settling for less. It's been almost a year since I first reported my foot being cold. I've had plenty of testing, but seriously, what is broken in US medical care? I'm pretty sure that in other countries I would be well past post operative care by now. My boiling water is evaporating.

Kelly

So tired of this

 So many times and so many people have hurt me in my life. I'm not saying anything physical was done to me. But emotionally? Oh yeah. 

This was supposed to be a good week, my best friend of 40 years is visiting. She happens to be my sister in law, and the mother of my niece who lives nearby. Today was a tragedy of errors mostly because the traffic was horrendous. There was a good reason why we couldn't follow the family to my great nephew's graduation, and I'll leave it at that. Once on the road my stupid phone kept malfunctioning the directions. We got lost and were not going to make it on time.  There was a cake to be picked up from my place and delivered to theirs. I can't count how many times I left and came back to my apartment today, or how many times I had to take the damned stairs. Finally my friend and I were waiting with the cake at my niece's house for them to come back. Instead I received a text from her telling me to leave her house. Essentially I was tried as guilty without a trial. 

So, I'm so damned tired of her coloring me as some kind of freaking villain. I'm tired of her hurting me with her judgement. I'm done with crying and wondering why. Doesn't she know how much I wanted to be at his graduation? If she was sitting in my back seat during that drive she would "maybe" have understood. Instead she is chauffered like a princess because she never even tried to get a driver's license. She's never gotten lost, or if so it wasn't her fault 

I left fast. I was far too angry and upset to even consider staying. I never want to be there again 

So she is like the 4th person who has cut me to the core. I still love my best friend. It's not her fault her daughter is a witch. I hope we can see each other again before we're both too old 

K

On a personal note 😷🙀

 Yep, I'm back to old lady medical woes. I'll be brief. I've had my angiogram. The results were not too good. Per my vascular doctor, you have 3 main arteries between your torso and your knee. 2 and 1/2 of my left leg arteries are occluded, or blocked, which means blood flow to my lower leg is being cut off. I'm going to need bypass surgery in my left leg. The right leg also has an occlusion but it's not as bad. 

The root cause? Smoking. I'm a long term smoker. I haven't had any respiratory problems. I wasn't aware that it could cause vascular issues. I've been told that even people who don't smoke have developed vascular disease. In their cases it's likely genetic.

So surgery is coming up. I'm seriously considering quitting smoking. It's not only a health issue, it's damned expensive for someone on a limited budget. Rent is being raised again. They've raised it every year since I moved in. I wish that there was some way to have my rent frozen. Nothing much has been done to improve my apartment other than replacing parts that were too old and worn out, ie: my stove and air conditioner. The greed never ends in today's cost of living. Everything just keeps going up and never coming down.

Kel 

Who are the Oppressors now? ✊

 Before I start my blog post, let me first say that I am fully aware that there are 2 sides to every story. What I may say here might not be what you believe. I understand that, and you as a reader should too. My blog, my opinion.

I rarely discuss world politics or events, but like the rest of the world I've been following what's happening in Israel regarding the Gaza strip and it's inhabitants. I keep waiting for Israel to stop it's attacks, and it's still not happening.

85 years ago, or longer, the Jewish people were ostracized and then murdered by the Nazis in power. It was so horrendous that till this day it's hard to comprehend the scope of how many people were systemically killed, starved, had their families torn apart. As a global conscientiousness we were shocked and horrified. ( Any holocaust deniers can just shut up, if you deny history you weren't paying attention in school.) In essence the Israelites were provided with a land of their own because of how many suffered. I'm sure that there was more to it politically, but that's what I believe.The problem is is that land has been fought over since biblical times. Every nationality claimed it as their own, Muslims and the Jews. Peace summits have been attempted many times.

That brings us to today. I don't deny that Hamas terrorists attacked, killed and kidnapped Jewish people. What I can't wrap my head around is Israel's response. 1300 Jewish people were killed. Israel has since then killed 30,000 Palestinians, including journalists, and aid workers.  The latest were 7 people who were delivering much needed food. Gaza citizens are not only homeless but are reaching a terrible level of famine. Ask me, what does that resemble?

Israel's response has far exceeded an eye for an eye. They have become the Oppressors. Military might is one thing, but they are doing what was done to them. Enough. It has to end. 

A wee update 👩‍⚕️⚕️

 Kinda in limbo right now. Ortho doc assigned me physical therapy and I had my first visit. Will be going twice a week. Angiogram, which was cancelled while I was in pre-op due to extremely low potassium, has yet to be rescheduled. February will likely be the month. 

I'm now taking an injection once a week in addition to oral med for my blood sugar. I'm really hoping that it will bring down my A1C, and help with my fasting sugar which was stupidly high at 181. Normal is 80 and lower. 

That's it for now. The saga of the pitiful goober in Ohio will continue.

Kel 

Butt freezing cold ❄️

 We really have not had any measurable snow, trace amounts up to 2 inches. So in that respect we have been lucky considering that our neighboring states have been walloped. But this week the temperature is going to crash to single and negative digits, and that doesn't account for the wind chill factor. 

I know that most of the country will be experiencing a similar situation. I feel your pain as I sit in a comfortable chair next to the door that allows streams of outside air to enter the apartment. The windows aren't much better. Yeah, counting my blessings that I am not homeless. But having to layer 2 pairs of socks then slippers, long underwear, and sweats is ridiculous. When the maintenance man addressed the draft issue 2 years ago he added a guard on the bottom of the door which actually increased the gap that runs the door seam up to the knob. Since he didn't see any light coming in he declared it fixed.

The front of my building, which faces the woods doesn't get much afternoon sun. In the morning you can see sunshine glowing through the gap. I'm going to call for him to come back. I like the dude, he normally does an awesome job. 

But being a Popsicle is not my thing. I'd rather have snow than bitter cold and high winds. My electric bill is going to bury me. Stay warm everyone.

Miss my little buddy.