I Confess

Everybody who knows me well is aware that I avoid and do not subscribe to television in it's multitude of
crappy reality shows and false news reports. I made that choice long ago and do not regret not being plugged into the mainstream as so many are these days. Personally I believe we would be better off not parking our butts in front of the tube and digesting some of the most unappealing parts of the 21st century.

But...I do confess to occasional forays into some very good shows. Still no cable attached to my TV  it is mainly there for movies. However I have dived into "Game of Thrones" and I am waiting for the next season. More recently it's been "True Blood" that has become my drug of choice. And I am a glutton...lol..I had 5 seasons to fill my quiet nights compared to Thrones which only had a few. I watch them for free online and have become very involved in the stories being told.

Long ago I did the same thing with "The Sopranos" so this is nothing new, but I am almost over dosing on watching one show after another with "True Blood." It's funny in that I never actually read any of Charlene Harris's Sookie Stackhouse series. I do read quite a bit of paranormal fiction, it's another drug of choice. I know I must have picked them up once in awhile but I never brought one home.Even though I have watched nearly 4 seasons in the past several weeks it's quite likely that I will now start reading the book series. Why? Because even as good as these two shows have been a book tells a better story, a great deal more detail that cannot be conveyed completely on film, it's just not possible.

So my confession is that I am a closet TV show watcher in a sense. But I swear, crossing my heart and my eyes, that I will never watch some of the most ridiculous junk to travel by broadband...bratty children dressed up like Diva's, Men who eat too much food and are heading for a cardiac arrest, Bill O'Reilly and  F**ked up Fox news...etc. I appreciate the mind that God gave me, and that means I don't feed it trash.

k

PS: kudos go to HBO..both of these shows originated there.

Today was...

Today was "Get Your Butt Kicked Day". Betcha' did not know that huh? Well it was, and I did.
Hope everyone else survived their Butt Kicking too.

k

The Lonelies

 I sort of have a small case of the blues this weekend. Perhaps it is the Winter doldrums, as each week that slides by feels the same to me. It is definitely NOT the blues over V-Day ( Yes, I interpret it as Venereal Disease day..wondering how many people get hurt over others physical interpretation of Love?) I have decided that it most assuredly my duty to myself to find something to fill my time besides work.

There are many opportunities that I fail at finding interesting, further servitude, though a wonderful idea, does not really fill my need to do something fun that brings sparks of ideas and energy back into my life. There are many that would find it fulfilling, but I am afraid I would carry someone else's pain home with me, having a sad tendency to empathize very strongly. I would doubt myself in the ability to really make a change for them, and get angry with a system that just keeps failing on it's citizens. Being angry or outraged, again, not my idea of joy. Yep, I do ponder these things at great length.

I'd love to work with animals, but unless someone wills me land and a farm I could not bring them all home with me as I would want to do. Animal abuse, seen firsthand, would cause me to commit violence on some ignorant evil person and likely cause me to spend time in jail.

Gardening is months away. I wish I had known about being here another year, I would have planted bulbs to welcome the spring. Perhaps I will find some other creative outlet? Painting? (loud annoying buzzer sounds!) Sewing? (another buzzer and me saying to myself "are you kidding me??") Another sad wreath for the door?
Sigh...

Cooking is out, I am fat enough. That leaves..walking. Walking on my days off used to invigorate me. Marching around the neighborhood with ear buds and avoiding loose dogs and bad drivers? Ok..I will give it a try. It's better than more callouses on my ass and damn Blah's.

If anyone has a suggestion..I am all ears...
literally..I could fly with these...
k

Driving Me Crazy(er)

If you go back a bit in my blogs you can find a few that were written about my car accident in August of this year. I believed myself to be fortunate that I was able to walk away from it, and deeply sad and angry that a car that would have been paid off this month with very low mileage was totaled, due to someone else's inattention at the wheel. She was on her phone and ran a red light. I was completely not at fault for the loss.

Our insurance company (we both had the same carrier) paid for the loss of my car, but it is going to still cost me $250 a month for the next 4 1/2 years that I would not have been paying. I was really counting on being able to have some breathing room, and now..so not going to happen. I went to the emergency room following the accident with neck pain and pain in my arms. I chalked it up to whiplash and thought nothing more about it.  When I drove my new vehicle home for the first time both my arms went numb on me, again I thought temporary issue. However now, whenever I drive for longer than 30 minutes I get pain in my left arm that cannot be shaken away. I also have some sort of problem with my left thumb, it's been swollen for months.

Sounds like I should see a doctor right? Well this chick has medical bills up the tail due to another sad circumstance in September following the accident, namely Salmonella, which had me hospitalized for 4 days, and sick for a total of 10 days. My health insurance? Please, don't make me go there. I really miss the medical coverage from my past, because today's seem to pay for very little. And so..I owe...again.

Well back to the auto accident. There is something called "Pain and Suffering" which keeps ambulance chasing attorneys flush with cash. I will not retain an attorney, no can do. In order to receive said payment from the auto carrier they required me to see another doctor. With the hospitalization so closely following the accident, and me having to see my own doctor at $40 a visit for follow up, I was fed up with doctors and medical bills, so I cancelled my appointment with the Neurologist, rescheduled, and then they cancelled on me.

I am at a loss as to what I should ask for. If after jumping through the doctor hoop will the insurance carrier just send me the time missed from work? If that happens I will flip my lid and have a crazy woman fit, because here will come another doctor's bill on my already burdened budget.

I know what I should do..but I also know that bills will follow. The auto carrier, of course, has not given any hint to what they would be offering, or what pay off I should ask for. Since we both have the same carrier I cannot ask my adjuster what would be fair..(I've been given some wild advice by people I work with, most I would not feel comfortable asking for.) I feel that whatever I might ask would be shared with the other claims adjuster.  If I do as they are asking and get bad news you can bet I will be shopping for another insurance company and a strait jacket. Oh, and maybe some Valium to keep my lid on top of my head.

k
PS: I really miss having a thumb that does not hurt,.