Weirdness

 

For those that are unfamiliar with my blog I actually have three. Simply is my current blog and where I'm usually found to be writing, though I'm not as prolific as I once was. To tell the truth my life is pretty quiet now since I've retired and remain happily single.

My second blog is Simply Poetry, also only added to once in a while. I have been writing poetry since I was a teenager. I was a editor of a poetry magazine while completing highschool. The mood and inspiration has to hit before I post there.

My first blog was Souly Speaking, a Journal and Reflections. That is a very emotional blog that started all this. It began when after being in a 9 year relationship I was dumped by a man who swore he loved me. That blog is full of anger, heartbreak and bitterness. I try to never post there anymore because that is the past. It was meant to be someplace I could vent and I did so often.

Why did I title this entry "weirdness"? Well for some reason and source that I am not aware of, I've been seeing a huge amount of traffic on my blogs, and I mean huge. I'd be flattered except that I think I'm in some sort of click bait loop. Someone somewhere has linked my blogs to their own site. 

Please don't get me wrong, it's exciting to see all the traffic coming here and I can tell that not everyone is actually reading. So if you ended up here by accident I can assure you that I didn't do it. If you stayed to read thank you.  I hope that you enjoyed your journey.

KA

How do I fix this?

 Not sure if anyone out there has had something like this happen to you, but here goes.. Have you ever had a friend whose actions towards you bordered on being not friendly? I know this sounds strange coming from someone my age. Shouldn't I know what friendship is? 

Problem is, that for some reason, I've had several friends like that in my life. Being laughed at and not with, because it made other people laugh, but you're not laughing. Yes you spent time together without that. But it was always me as the butt of the joke, not them. Like I had to be good natured to remain  friends.

My dilemma today is not about laughter. It's about someone who is paid to help me, but we have a sort of friendship. I think that she's coming to resent performing the chores she was assigned. I have fractured discs in my back which makes chores painful, though I do what I can, and feel bad about asking her for help. I did not grow up in a wealthy family who hired help. I like that we share enough in common that we can talk about life together, but maybe my desire for a friend has messed this up.

I'm going to have to talk to her about it because it was clearly something she was angry about last week. I don't have many friends these days since I'm not working anymore and my besties are 3000 miles away. This is going to be hard. Maybe I'm mistaking a client/service relationship for a real friendship.

Frost Bit

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There have only been a few times in my life when Mother Nature became a frigid bitch, and right now is one of them. For weeks this January we haven't broken out of the teens in temperature and night in the single digits or below zero. I am very aware that other people are experiencing worse than I am. I share sympathy for those folks. But I can still bitch about my current situation. My feet don't get warm unless I'm wearing wool socks and under the bed covers for at least 30 minutes.

I can feel the cold air doing it's very best to infiltrate through the front windows and door. There's nothing I can do to stop it. Heat? So flipping expensive right now, and baseboard electric is only on one wall in the living room and the bedroom. It struggles to heat anything beyond 3 feet in front of the heater.

I've been wearing layers since December. I'm a firm lover of the seasons, but this year I'm rooting for spring. Less clothes and lower electric bills. Not having my cabinets open and faucets dripping to prevent busted water pipes. Or just a regular winter where the temperature fluxuates. This polar vortex came for a visit and doesn't want to go home. I'm revoking it's Visa. Go back to the Artic!! I'm tired of hosting a bitch who raises my bills and leaves me frozen.

Wishing for a fireplace or a warm island.

Kel

Tis the Season

 For snow. Winter has decided that this is the week for us to wake up!! You know, as a kid I loved it, even if it meant wearing bread bags held on with a rubber band inside my boots. No fancy water proofing in those days, we generally were frozen and wet after playing outside in the snow. Snow forts and ferocious snow ball battles. It was fun then.

Now? It's a pain in my 60 something year old ass. If I lived in my own home I'd periodically use a broom to sweep the steps. A week or two ago we had maybe 1 inch fall for our first snow. Building maintenance did absolutely jack shit to clear the 15 steps it takes to get up to my apartment. They lightly scattered snow melt and left it. Treacherous? Yes, and I normally am slow going down those stairs. Here's hoping that my bitching about it makes a difference.

Now a days I plan around the snow since I'm basically a hermit. I'm prepared by stocking up so outside trips aren't necessary. I have better boots, lol, and almost waterproof gloves. I do have unfortunate luck with hats though, either they are so tight they slide up my hair, or so loose and floppy they don't keep out the cold. So I wrap my head and throat with a long scarf and look like a scary old granny.

I hope everyone who stops on this blog has a wonderful holiday season. If you're from the U.S wear sweatpants for turkey day. 

Don't bankrupt yourself buying gifts this year. If someone really needs uplifting gift groceries or cash. Whatever you do do Not support the big box stores and oligarch run businesses like Amazon, Target, and Walmart. Shop locally instead. We need to stop giving them our money to send a message that they will not control this country and abuse us to get richer.

Off my soap box. Have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Kel 

Autumn has arrived!

I have no pretty pictures of colorful leaves just yet because they hadn't started to change until this past week.  The jungle of kudzu covered trees behind my apartment has changed to yellow this weekend and as in the past will quickly turn brown (so disappointing). I'm going to have to actually go outside and find the prettier trees. Unfortunately I'm not really able to trek far with my cane, but I'll try.

I used to live in a wooded community in Southern Maryland. It wasn't hard at all to see gorgeous color. Because of our location the leaves turned later. I would actually stress out if we had been in drought conditions because it meant leaves fell quickly and autumn was over in the blink of an eye.

The nights here in Ohio are finally turning colder, and we're expecting temps in the 50's this week. So this old autumn baby is happy. My decor is spread out making me smile, a change of scenery was well needed. I'll share my views below. I don't do spooky decorations as I used to, I've been forced to down size too many times and much went to goodwill. 

I hope that everyone can experience their own autumn fun. For my readers in the Southern hemisphere I know that summer is upon you. I'm sorry, this old fart would lose what's left of her marbles if my seasons were reversed. Living in Southern California for 9 years made me miserable. I don't care, Thanksgiving and Christmas are cold holidays and much of my seasonal happiness was lost there .

So gaze upon my meager decorations and be well.

Forget about medical

 I've blathered on about health issues that I have or have dealt with on this blog. Well the days of affordable care are over for this gal. I was forced out of Medicaid, was switched to a decent HMO, and now dumped into a PPO that costs me too much out of pocket. So no more specialists or diagnostic procedures, not when I can't afford my side of the payments. A $200 fee to cover a doctor appointment and labs is 200 I can't pay. So I won't be moving forward for any health care in the future. Otherwise I'll end up with medical debt. There will be a national problem with medical debt forth coming as the Medicaid cuts go into affect and I feel for those people who won't have a choice 

In other news I'm sure most people are aware of the assignation of Charlie Kirk. In my opinion any gun violence is too much.  But I heard Kirk's remarks about school shootings. He said that "sacrifices" must be made to protect the 2nd amendment. Meaning kids had to die so the right to bear arms could be upheld. Therefore, according to Kirk, his death is just another sacrifice. The anger spilling out of MAGA to blame liberals for his death is unjustified. If they believed what Kirk said then they should calm down. Where ..was their anger over the mass killings of innocent children?? Most liberals are against violence. I think that it was personal, that the shooter heard Kirk's take on school shootings, likely lost someone they loved, and believed in revenge. The shooter's t shirt was in support of disabled veterans. Instead of targeting the crowd, it was a single shot by someone who was trained as a sniper .

That's it for today.  

It's coming!!

 I can feel it coming, feel it peeking around the corner; I can sense that it's wearing a mischievous grin and has gleaming eyes. The wind gusts start the leaves chattering, "it's coming" they whisper loudly. Every insect screams a late summer song, while nights become colder, and geese direct their gaggle arrowing towards the South. That season of change is almost upon us as we think about grabbing a jacket.

If you cannot surmise by the above messy description, fall is coming. I much prefer that announcement over the oft quoted " Winter is coming." Traditionally Autumn is a season of plenty, the harvest gathering of summer's labors.  In the past winter meant shortages of food, deep cold and dark skies.

For All the lovers of October's burst of colors, singularly beautiful skies and frosty nights,Well Come. In my heart I wish that autumn lasted longer, it seems like such a long time before it returns. So my friends enjoy this bright festival filled month of good food, good spirits and spooky fun. I'm itching to pull out the fall decor but technically it's still late summer, and I'm old enough to not want time to speed up.