How do I fix this?

 Not sure if anyone out there has had something like this happen to you, but here goes.. Have you ever had a friend whose actions towards you bordered on being not friendly? I know this sounds strange coming from someone my age. Shouldn't I know what friendship is? 

Problem is, that for some reason, I've had several friends like that in my life. Being laughed at and not with, because it made other people laugh, but you're not laughing. Yes you spent time together without that. But it was always me as the butt of the joke, not them. Like I had to be good natured to remain  friends.

My dilemma today is not about laughter. It's about someone who is paid to help me, but we have a sort of friendship. I think that she's coming to resent performing the chores she was assigned. I have fractured discs in my back which makes chores painful, though I do what I can, and feel bad about asking her for help. I did not grow up in a wealthy family who hired help. I like that we share enough in common that we can talk about life together, but maybe my desire for a friend has messed this up.

I'm going to have to talk to her about it because it was clearly something she was angry about last week. I don't have many friends these days since I'm not working anymore and my besties are 3000 miles away. This is going to be hard. Maybe I'm mistaking a client/service relationship for a real friendship.

Frost Bit

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There have only been a few times in my life when Mother Nature became a frigid bitch, and right now is one of them. For weeks this January we haven't broken out of the teens in temperature and night in the single digits or below zero. I am very aware that other people are experiencing worse than I am. I share sympathy for those folks. But I can still bitch about my current situation. My feet don't get warm unless I'm wearing wool socks and under the bed covers for at least 30 minutes.

I can feel the cold air doing it's very best to infiltrate through the front windows and door. There's nothing I can do to stop it. Heat? So flipping expensive right now, and baseboard electric is only on one wall in the living room and the bedroom. It struggles to heat anything beyond 3 feet in front of the heater.

I've been wearing layers since December. I'm a firm lover of the seasons, but this year I'm rooting for spring. Less clothes and lower electric bills. Not having my cabinets open and faucets dripping to prevent busted water pipes. Or just a regular winter where the temperature fluxuates. This polar vortex came for a visit and doesn't want to go home. I'm revoking it's Visa. Go back to the Artic!! I'm tired of hosting a bitch who raises my bills and leaves me frozen.

Wishing for a fireplace or a warm island.

Kel