Flaws

Flaws, we all have them.  Sometimes we can ignore,; sometimes they come so close they bite us in the ass. We can strive to overcome them, or have them overcome us. Self analysis is a wonderful thing, if it works.

I've looked into my mirror and asked myself how do I overcome? Then I feel foolish when gazing into my own eyes. It's damn hard to be self aware.  You feel like an idiot for looking at yourself and asking those most important questions.

I almost feel egocentric for looking at myself in the  mirror, and more so when I verbalize those questions. Only I can answer, there are no others waiting to council.

~k

Topsy Turvy

Sometimes change happens slowly. Sometimes it bowls you over like a wrecking ball. This past month has been the wrecking ball kind of change, and I am still reeling because the changes keep coming. I've lost more than a few good friends because of what's been happening at work. My plans have again gone by the wayside due to circumstances beyond anyone's control, or it's just fate maybe. So now I wait for the dust to settle and see what might become of all these changes. Where will I end up? That's a good question, and one I do not have the answers to yet. So I wait, at least for awhile, for others to decide what comes next. There is no sense in planning my own strategy until the dust settles. Whatever they do will effect my next decision and direction.

I know now that there is nothing keeping me where I am except for probable employment. These days finding your next job is a difficult endeavor. Starting all over again? That's a scary notion. Taking bigger steps and moving are heavy decisions and not taken lightly. My direction has been thrown off kilter lately. Those Big steps take a great deal of pondering before we can act on them.

So for the moment I am in limbo, awaiting the next big change to come along. Only time will tell.

K