Things are just not right for the last few weeks. I'm finding it hard to find my happy place.
Between misunderstandings at home, and real issues at work I feel like a target.
All the over time is really starting to affect me. I feel tired and run down, and no
relief in sight. There is something broken in a company that constantly has to ask their
employees to work extra every week, and I am completely serious in stating that I have
been doing OT since the first week I started with them. There might have been
1-2 weeks since last December that I worked just 40 hours.
The whole 'be grateful that you have a job?' I believe that is just the corporate world's
way of treating their people like slaves and getting away with it...the threat that they might take it
away from you keeps you in line. I remember how good it felt to work for an employer
that treated their employees well, (even though I got screwed in the end) the benefits
were very good. If you re treated right then OT is not something you dread. But companies
no longer care whether they treat you well or not..just be grateful.
Sadly, even with the over time I do not make enough to afford a place of my own
here in Colorado.It's very expensive to live here. So, if I sometimes bitch about moving
here being a mistake, it is not directed at my Dad or Dee. It's just that I lost something
when I became stuck, it's not their fault. I guess the old saying that happiness is not a place or
another person is true. It's within you, something you decide to be. But it's hard for me
having depression since forever in my life, and then whammies from work that just
keep coming. If I feel down trodden it's twice as hard to shake the blues.
Anyway (as Mom used to say) that's what's happening here for me. Maybe
tomorrow will be different in a positive way. No more whammies please.
K
Between misunderstandings at home, and real issues at work I feel like a target.
All the over time is really starting to affect me. I feel tired and run down, and no
relief in sight. There is something broken in a company that constantly has to ask their
employees to work extra every week, and I am completely serious in stating that I have
been doing OT since the first week I started with them. There might have been
1-2 weeks since last December that I worked just 40 hours.
The whole 'be grateful that you have a job?' I believe that is just the corporate world's
way of treating their people like slaves and getting away with it...the threat that they might take it
away from you keeps you in line. I remember how good it felt to work for an employer
that treated their employees well, (even though I got screwed in the end) the benefits
were very good. If you re treated right then OT is not something you dread. But companies
no longer care whether they treat you well or not..just be grateful.
Sadly, even with the over time I do not make enough to afford a place of my own
here in Colorado.It's very expensive to live here. So, if I sometimes bitch about moving
here being a mistake, it is not directed at my Dad or Dee. It's just that I lost something
when I became stuck, it's not their fault. I guess the old saying that happiness is not a place or
another person is true. It's within you, something you decide to be. But it's hard for me
having depression since forever in my life, and then whammies from work that just
keep coming. If I feel down trodden it's twice as hard to shake the blues.
Anyway (as Mom used to say) that's what's happening here for me. Maybe
tomorrow will be different in a positive way. No more whammies please.
K
