Not sure if anyone out there has had something like this happen to you, but here goes.. Have you ever had a friend whose actions towards you bordered on being not friendly? I know this sounds strange coming from someone my age. Shouldn't I know what friendship is?
Problem is, that for some reason, I've had several friends like that in my life. Being laughed at and not with, because it made other people laugh, but you're not laughing. Yes you spent time together without that. But it was always me as the butt of the joke, not them. Like I had to be good natured to remain friends.
My dilemma today is not about laughter. It's about someone who is paid to help me, but we have a sort of friendship. I think that she's coming to resent performing the chores she was assigned. I have fractured discs in my back which makes chores painful, though I do what I can, and feel bad about asking her for help. I did not grow up in a wealthy family who hired help. I like that we share enough in common that we can talk about life together, but maybe my desire for a friend has messed this up.
I'm going to have to talk to her about it because it was clearly something she was angry about last week. I don't have many friends these days since I'm not working anymore and my besties are 3000 miles away. This is going to be hard. Maybe I'm mistaking a client/service relationship for a real friendship.
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