Robin Williams...we shared a common last name..and much more. I am not lying when I say that I can relate to and understand where he was when he made his final decision. It is a very dark place...where hope is not to be found. If not for the grace of God, a dear friend, and my Father, I might have met his fate long before he reached his.
Nobody can really know the depths that Depression can take you. Everything closes in and there is no light to lead you back. I confess to not having the same drug abuse problems but I can attest that Depression is very real.
There seems to be little hope. You feel that all efforts are for naught. The tears and the pain suck you in to an abyss that has no bottom, constantly falling. Darkness..fear...self doubt..twist you into a lost knot.
I confess that I had saviors. A kindly psychologist with a Howdy Doody smile; an ambulance crew who did everything they could and succeeded..an ICU that kept me alive...a friend that stood steadfast at my side, always there when I needed her, and a parent who forgave and gave of himself to keep me on the right path.
Without these people I would not be here today.
I will never be able to say how much everyone of them meant to me. For the most part I have no connection to thank them. Those that are still close today know their value in the part they paid in my recovery and survival., and they continue to be closest to my heart.
My deepest regret for Robin is that he did not reach out for help. There is always someone who can give you a good reason to keep breathing. Sometimes it's a total stranger, sometimes it is someone you hold dear. But they cannot hear if you do not ask.
He was a true human. He gave from his heart. His caring and empathy showed in everything he did. The world will be less without him, but I am very grateful for what he did share with us. I hope that his final adventure (death) leads him to a paradise where there is no more pain..just love and laughter.
~k
Nobody can really know the depths that Depression can take you. Everything closes in and there is no light to lead you back. I confess to not having the same drug abuse problems but I can attest that Depression is very real.
There seems to be little hope. You feel that all efforts are for naught. The tears and the pain suck you in to an abyss that has no bottom, constantly falling. Darkness..fear...self doubt..twist you into a lost knot.
I confess that I had saviors. A kindly psychologist with a Howdy Doody smile; an ambulance crew who did everything they could and succeeded..an ICU that kept me alive...a friend that stood steadfast at my side, always there when I needed her, and a parent who forgave and gave of himself to keep me on the right path.
Without these people I would not be here today.
I will never be able to say how much everyone of them meant to me. For the most part I have no connection to thank them. Those that are still close today know their value in the part they paid in my recovery and survival., and they continue to be closest to my heart.
My deepest regret for Robin is that he did not reach out for help. There is always someone who can give you a good reason to keep breathing. Sometimes it's a total stranger, sometimes it is someone you hold dear. But they cannot hear if you do not ask.
He was a true human. He gave from his heart. His caring and empathy showed in everything he did. The world will be less without him, but I am very grateful for what he did share with us. I hope that his final adventure (death) leads him to a paradise where there is no more pain..just love and laughter.
~k
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