(currently being given the 'evil eye' by Gilligan-he was quite comfortably laying in my lap when I decided to write a new entry. Oh! Now I am getting the 'hang your head over the edge of the bed and look woeful' pose. Guess I will have to make up for the inattention in a few minutes.)
Let's see...not going to write about the holidays and my situation, that's been talked about before.
Work is getting worrisome due to everyone's hours being cut due to the company not pulling in the profit it once did. This is because of new casinos in the area and the economy. Not much we can do about it but try to hang in there. It is making it more difficult getting from one paycheck to another. But...I have also mentioned that in a previous blog.
No, tonight I will share with you a nightmare, not something real, but instead something scary that occasionally visits me in dreams. First understand that I am 54 years old. I used to think that bad dreams were the stuff of childhood. Anxiety dreams followed me through high school, usually at the beginning and the end of the school year. You know, dreams where you cannot find your locker, or somehow end up at school missing articles of clothing, missing your bus..etc. But I had truly believed that those days of nightmares were over.
I had a few doozy nightmares as a child that would repeat themselves every now and again. Tornado dreams, dark scary basement dreams, and yes some monster dreams. (don't you hate the ones where you feel frozen and unable to move away from whatever dreadful creature is coming towards you? I would always force myself awake, then realize that what I had opened my eyes to looked just like what I had been dreaming, and THAT freaked me out.)
But the one and only nightmare that has followed me through my entire life is...Godzilla. Oh hell yes..I know you are laughing, but it's true. (damn you) The dreams differ only by location. It is the sounds and the fear filled dread that is consistently present in all of them. I hear footsteps. Big damn footsteps that cause the earth to tremble and things to rattle on the shelves and sometimes fall off. You just know he is very close even though you cannot yet see him. You try to find a safe hiding spot.(really? Is there one? I mean he can crush whatever building, tree or bridge that is in his path.)
The latest version had me as part of a team that was (I assume) a "Godzilla Tracking team." (lmao) We traveled though a city that was partially demolished and seemed deserted of humans other than us. I assume it had become demolished where ever that big damn thing had already visited. We went from train station to skyscrapers, to finally a relatively untouched residential area. The few people that I was with were the only ones present, though it turned out that the animals had been left behind.
We could hear him getting closer. Everyone was frantically looking at the trees and sky, because you know he is one dang big bugger. It was decided in whispers to take our chances hiding in someone's open garage that had a closet. Well naturally, I just had to pick up a cat who was walking around and take it in there with me. As we were closing the door and attempting complete silence the footsteps came ever closer. Suddenly a previously unseen cat started to howl (frigging loudly) at my feet. I tried shushing the cat..but it was too late. The footsteps stopped and the roar from the creature was so loud I knew it was close to where we were hiding.
Heart pounding and adrenalin flowing I woke up before I could be crushed or eaten. It was 5:15 a.m. Flip the light on next to my bed. Lay listening to the silence. Wondering why in the hell I still had dreams like this. Get up, check the few room in my place and lay back down. Waiting for my heart to settle back down.
I guess my claim to fame will be a very active subconscious that likes to keep me awake at nights.
You'd think at my age I would have different kinds of dreams instead of childhood nightmares. But Nooooo, not this gal.
I think it would be very polite if Godzilla gives me a years reprieve before visiting me in my sleep again.
Argh!
K
Let's see...not going to write about the holidays and my situation, that's been talked about before.
Work is getting worrisome due to everyone's hours being cut due to the company not pulling in the profit it once did. This is because of new casinos in the area and the economy. Not much we can do about it but try to hang in there. It is making it more difficult getting from one paycheck to another. But...I have also mentioned that in a previous blog.
No, tonight I will share with you a nightmare, not something real, but instead something scary that occasionally visits me in dreams. First understand that I am 54 years old. I used to think that bad dreams were the stuff of childhood. Anxiety dreams followed me through high school, usually at the beginning and the end of the school year. You know, dreams where you cannot find your locker, or somehow end up at school missing articles of clothing, missing your bus..etc. But I had truly believed that those days of nightmares were over.
I had a few doozy nightmares as a child that would repeat themselves every now and again. Tornado dreams, dark scary basement dreams, and yes some monster dreams. (don't you hate the ones where you feel frozen and unable to move away from whatever dreadful creature is coming towards you? I would always force myself awake, then realize that what I had opened my eyes to looked just like what I had been dreaming, and THAT freaked me out.)
But the one and only nightmare that has followed me through my entire life is...Godzilla. Oh hell yes..I know you are laughing, but it's true. (damn you) The dreams differ only by location. It is the sounds and the fear filled dread that is consistently present in all of them. I hear footsteps. Big damn footsteps that cause the earth to tremble and things to rattle on the shelves and sometimes fall off. You just know he is very close even though you cannot yet see him. You try to find a safe hiding spot.(really? Is there one? I mean he can crush whatever building, tree or bridge that is in his path.)
The latest version had me as part of a team that was (I assume) a "Godzilla Tracking team." (lmao) We traveled though a city that was partially demolished and seemed deserted of humans other than us. I assume it had become demolished where ever that big damn thing had already visited. We went from train station to skyscrapers, to finally a relatively untouched residential area. The few people that I was with were the only ones present, though it turned out that the animals had been left behind.
We could hear him getting closer. Everyone was frantically looking at the trees and sky, because you know he is one dang big bugger. It was decided in whispers to take our chances hiding in someone's open garage that had a closet. Well naturally, I just had to pick up a cat who was walking around and take it in there with me. As we were closing the door and attempting complete silence the footsteps came ever closer. Suddenly a previously unseen cat started to howl (frigging loudly) at my feet. I tried shushing the cat..but it was too late. The footsteps stopped and the roar from the creature was so loud I knew it was close to where we were hiding.
Heart pounding and adrenalin flowing I woke up before I could be crushed or eaten. It was 5:15 a.m. Flip the light on next to my bed. Lay listening to the silence. Wondering why in the hell I still had dreams like this. Get up, check the few room in my place and lay back down. Waiting for my heart to settle back down.
I guess my claim to fame will be a very active subconscious that likes to keep me awake at nights.
You'd think at my age I would have different kinds of dreams instead of childhood nightmares. But Nooooo, not this gal.
I think it would be very polite if Godzilla gives me a years reprieve before visiting me in my sleep again.
Argh!
K
1 comment:
You do know that there is a new Godzilla movie coming out in May, 2016? More fuel for your dreams?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBwsUD7jYCI
Love you! Mel
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