Gilligan..sweet, loving, my little buddy. Slept beside me, greeted me when I came home. Traveled to new homes together 3 times, never cried or carried on, a quiet companion. He talked to me as cats will do, and I swear he understood me. I had to let him go today.
He was 15 years old, and I wanted him to be with me always, selfish but true. The vet said that he had end stage renal failure and diabetes. He had been visibly failing for weeks, his movements slow and painful, so unlike himself just 3 months ago. His eyes sad, dark and pain filled.
It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, saying good bye to him. I feel like I've lost a piece of my heart that will always be empty now. I held him and cried, telling him how much I loved him, telling him that I would see him again, and wishing that none of what was happening was real.
So many people have said " just get another cat." They haven't a clue who he was, what he meant to me, and how he cannot be replaced.
Gilligan, I hope that we will meet again. Mommy loves you more than words can say. Wait for me little buddy in heaven. My heart will hold you close until that time.
He was 15 years old, and I wanted him to be with me always, selfish but true. The vet said that he had end stage renal failure and diabetes. He had been visibly failing for weeks, his movements slow and painful, so unlike himself just 3 months ago. His eyes sad, dark and pain filled.
It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, saying good bye to him. I feel like I've lost a piece of my heart that will always be empty now. I held him and cried, telling him how much I loved him, telling him that I would see him again, and wishing that none of what was happening was real.
So many people have said " just get another cat." They haven't a clue who he was, what he meant to me, and how he cannot be replaced.
Gilligan, I hope that we will meet again. Mommy loves you more than words can say. Wait for me little buddy in heaven. My heart will hold you close until that time.
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