So tired of this

 So many times and so many people have hurt me in my life. I'm not saying anything physical was done to me. But emotionally? Oh yeah. 

This was supposed to be a good week, my best friend of 40 years is visiting. She happens to be my sister in law, and the mother of my niece who lives nearby. Today was a tragedy of errors mostly because the traffic was horrendous. There was a good reason why we couldn't follow the family to my great nephew's graduation, and I'll leave it at that. Once on the road my stupid phone kept malfunctioning the directions. We got lost and were not going to make it on time.  There was a cake to be picked up from my place and delivered to theirs. I can't count how many times I left and came back to my apartment today, or how many times I had to take the damned stairs. Finally my friend and I were waiting with the cake at my niece's house for them to come back. Instead I received a text from her telling me to leave her house. Essentially I was tried as guilty without a trial. 

So, I'm so damned tired of her coloring me as some kind of freaking villain. I'm tired of her hurting me with her judgement. I'm done with crying and wondering why. Doesn't she know how much I wanted to be at his graduation? If she was sitting in my back seat during that drive she would "maybe" have understood. Instead she is chauffered like a princess because she never even tried to get a driver's license. She's never gotten lost, or if so it wasn't her fault 

I left fast. I was far too angry and upset to even consider staying. I never want to be there again 

So she is like the 4th person who has cut me to the core. I still love my best friend. It's not her fault her daughter is a witch. I hope we can see each other again before we're both too old 

K