Calling for C.A.T.

It had been almost 10 months..he was doing so well. Then somehow he got his paws on the killer
weed..and he has not been the same since..Formally such a well adjusted and completely sane cat ( well--as sane as most cats can be) he has since 6pm yesterday evening been rolling on the ground, making 'Murrp!' noises, and pigging out on cat chow and cookies. Shortly after that he crashes..only to wake up and head right back to his new stash.

I've contacted C.A.T. ( Catnip Abuse Tribunal) in hopes of saving him from himself. Say a prayer for Gilly...He had been doing so well..I've never seen him act this way..not in a long time. Please, Take a moment and talk to your cats about the evils of catnip, the life you will be saving will be one out of nine.
Thanks,
k

Stoned Again

Creepu and blogo viewer

New way to watch the train wreck you started? Have fun with that. And it was just the facts jack...I am not sitting here boo-hooing my lack of Christmas, but neither am I into spreading Joy at the moment. It's easy to try and place doubt on something you don't want to take account for, wipe your ol'slate clean..not going to happen.  Merry Christmas.
k
PS: If you don't like what I write, it is really quite simple..stop coming here to read it.

The Christmas that wasn't

(please, other readers, forgive me the editing that seems to have been needed per those at  253 ford  -sorry to have broken up the blog, they needed clarification. And I Will Not Do this again.)


The only thing presently in my home that is 'Christmasy' is my small tree...and a few very cheap dollar store goodies for Gilligan.

 Yes, the 'Grinch' stole my Christmas, and despite his own words to the contrary,(last Feb/March) he IS having one himself. (not going to go there..if you don't already know, read more of the blog entries.) I am not sorry for saying that either, He did steal both years of my life and killed my finances. I Do have memories of better times that were spent together.  If he had never been serious, would it not have been the right thing to do to never have asked me to move in and marry him, multiple times? Making promises and breaking them..not something that I do.

Note to not so bright readers at 253 ford ---> Not blaming him for this part:
 There are no Christmas cookies. here,  I am working too many hours to get that done this year, and I do not need to eat them all by myself. If I can scrounge a batch up I will take them to work..  There are no Christmas cards, which cost is a factor, I will send only a few. Plus, there is No way with my holiday schedule at work to get to church this year.  I cannot even bring myself to watch holiday classics, because it opens a door to hurt that I do not want to feel, of better Christmas's. ( and if that bothers you..ford circle viewers..stop reading my blogs!)

So...if the world does Not end 12-21-2012, then I hope to really have a Christmas next year. Because this year is a wash..I am simply without funds to afford any of it..

 It does not feel in the least bit fair that for all the years I made sure Christmas happened for someone else, that I am now without means of celebrating it  now. The dumping on January 14th seems to be the gift that goes on giving, and by that I mean the debt and the memories of better times.<--again a note to brilliant 253 Ford readers.

I will say my prayers, sing a quiet 'Silent Night' and let it go, there is nothing else I can do.
I wish everyone else a Merry Christmas, I hope that you are spending it with family and loved ones,
because really the gifts are secondary, the real importance of Christmas is celebrating Christ's birth and being with those that you love. Being completely alone on a family holiday is incredibly hard on this heart.
*I did sing Silent Night..thankfully I was in my car on the way home and no one else had to listen.
k

ps: Despite my mentioning him here, I am currently on a self campaign to establish in my own mind and heart that "the Grinch" no longer exists at all.  All I want for Christmas is Amnesia.<--I believe they failed to read this part entirely.

'Tis the Season...

To share wishes of Christmas Joy to all my family and friends. An older video, I plan on a new one shortly.
I had to annotate to set a few things straight, sorry for the interruptions. Needless to say, a great deal of my older videos were dedicated to someone who elected to Not share his life with me anymore. Not much I can do with the videos other than add a note.


Merry Christmas,
k

A Season of Joy

Too deep

See if this strikes a memory chord:

: "some hurts run too deep...you cannot go home again."

" You, my friends, shall bow to no one."

k

I never cared so deeply, nor shared a feeling so profound as with this movie.

Gilligan agrees, I just got a foot rub.

re-submitting FYI

What I find amazing is I think that either he has convinced himself that the lies he told about me are real, or he is putting on a fantastic show for her and others. That is the only way to make his actions seem less selfish and self serving, and to come out as some kind of hero. If she is discovered after hiding all this time it won't have come from me.

Find another person to use as a scapegoat, dude. You are very good at convincing the simple minded that I am some evil wicked person who would do something terrible. You are still using whatever lies you used last year. Funny how it's always your ex's who are the ones that did you wrong, when it is obvious from the pattern

that it is all on You.

Anyone who believes otherwise is a fool.

Just because I won't shut up and go away does not mean I

would do harm. It simply means I am ornery enough to NOT be silenced.

By the way.."In the Audience" was not meant to cause paranoia. I have NOT done anything , period.

k

Paranoia Will Destroy ya...

The Kinks seem to have a theme...years apart, two different songs.

Acute Schizophrenia Paranoia Blues

Destroyer