Living on the edge of financial disaster..like so many these days..I almost feel numb. This past year has been a series of playing the paperwork game and trying to stay ahead of the giant hammer come to squash me.
I really do not know how this will end up. I do try to stay hopeful that I will survive it all. The only other option is to walk around, go to work, and live stressed out and teary, and I am not doing that. At this point (after doing all I can) I am just playing a waiting game to see where this will take me.
I am happy at my job. I like my home, and my life. But the constant struggle to defeat and overcome debt has been almost the norm since last January. That builds a sort of numbness, a 'becoming used to' feeling. Yes I do know that this time I might not be able to overcome the odds, always a possibility. If it happens I will do what I can to survive, just like all the other people stuck these days with insurmountable debt. Sometimes I feel like an observer, watching the rift between those who have, and those who have not grow larger. Realizing that what used to be the middle class is dissipating. Those close to the higher end join the 1% and the rest of us fall into the 99% who have not.
I do wonder sometimes where this will lead us. If the dissatisfaction in the ranks of the 99% grows large enough, it might force significant change to occur. Those that have power and money live in what I believe is a dream world where their ride never ends. If the 99% decide some day that they are tired of being kept low and impotent, a call for real change may happen whether the 1% agree or not. How that will play out is anybodies guess. Revolution, whether a whisper or a sonic boom will eventually occur. You can only keep people down so long before the propaganda and campaign towards subjugation fails. When real change is called for, substantiated and needed, it does happen. There will be nothing that the major corporations and our government, that keep us low and imprisoned in debt , can do to stop it. All of it is almost predetermined to to occur. There will be a final match that lights the fuse for change.Will I see it in my lifetime? I have not a clue, but I do not doubt that it will eventually happen.
Sorry for the run on about change, it is tied to my current status, and has a history with my past. (someone that shared thoughts like this with me, in surprisingly intellectual debates held late at night.) Since I once was and considered myself to be 'middle class' and now consider myself to have fallen, it is natural that those thoughts zip through my brain like this .I may end up being too old to do much when the time comes, but I will be cheering for real change.Somewhere along the way we failed to remain a democracy. Who runs the planet now? Major corporations. With legalize and power their fingers touch everything from our food shopping, buying needed gasoline, to how our government functions and beyond. If we still believe that our government works for us we are sadly mistaken. Go back to 2009 and the Wall street bailout. Remember who is supposed to pay for it all. Remember who used the money for a spa vacations. Remember who are the ants that run their wheels and receive a bill for working for them . For the most part we are nothing in their minds..just slave labor.
heavy thoughts tonight,
k
I really do not know how this will end up. I do try to stay hopeful that I will survive it all. The only other option is to walk around, go to work, and live stressed out and teary, and I am not doing that. At this point (after doing all I can) I am just playing a waiting game to see where this will take me.
I am happy at my job. I like my home, and my life. But the constant struggle to defeat and overcome debt has been almost the norm since last January. That builds a sort of numbness, a 'becoming used to' feeling. Yes I do know that this time I might not be able to overcome the odds, always a possibility. If it happens I will do what I can to survive, just like all the other people stuck these days with insurmountable debt. Sometimes I feel like an observer, watching the rift between those who have, and those who have not grow larger. Realizing that what used to be the middle class is dissipating. Those close to the higher end join the 1% and the rest of us fall into the 99% who have not.
I do wonder sometimes where this will lead us. If the dissatisfaction in the ranks of the 99% grows large enough, it might force significant change to occur. Those that have power and money live in what I believe is a dream world where their ride never ends. If the 99% decide some day that they are tired of being kept low and impotent, a call for real change may happen whether the 1% agree or not. How that will play out is anybodies guess. Revolution, whether a whisper or a sonic boom will eventually occur. You can only keep people down so long before the propaganda and campaign towards subjugation fails. When real change is called for, substantiated and needed, it does happen. There will be nothing that the major corporations and our government, that keep us low and imprisoned in debt , can do to stop it. All of it is almost predetermined to to occur. There will be a final match that lights the fuse for change.Will I see it in my lifetime? I have not a clue, but I do not doubt that it will eventually happen.
Sorry for the run on about change, it is tied to my current status, and has a history with my past. (someone that shared thoughts like this with me, in surprisingly intellectual debates held late at night.) Since I once was and considered myself to be 'middle class' and now consider myself to have fallen, it is natural that those thoughts zip through my brain like this .I may end up being too old to do much when the time comes, but I will be cheering for real change.Somewhere along the way we failed to remain a democracy. Who runs the planet now? Major corporations. With legalize and power their fingers touch everything from our food shopping, buying needed gasoline, to how our government functions and beyond. If we still believe that our government works for us we are sadly mistaken. Go back to 2009 and the Wall street bailout. Remember who is supposed to pay for it all. Remember who used the money for a spa vacations. Remember who are the ants that run their wheels and receive a bill for working for them . For the most part we are nothing in their minds..just slave labor.
heavy thoughts tonight,
k
1 comment:
Deep thoughts and very well written. I agree with you, it's gotta be a change for us 99% folks!
Love, Mel
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