Friday, July 8, 2011

Hmm...tapping fingernails and wondering...

My horoscope for today..hopeful message..doubtful delivery. Not being pessimistic, just realistic because I know myself and how I am feeling these days. Being stuck in a rut is not just my financial status, it is also my personal status. Afraid to move forward (which I have previously mentioned in other blog entries) and cannot turn back. My heart feels like a split personality disorder..
"Go for it!"
"Umm..No."
" Check out that profile! funny guy?"
" Umm..NO."
"Oh! Yea Baby, now we are talking..stud to the rescue!"
"Um..No and NO!"

Sigh..see? Ok, I will copy what it said so you can see for yourself. I am the Push Me Pull Me, from Dr Dolittle...the original. ( what have I said before? If you are not old enough, you should not read here! Lol. Look it up!)

And Voila! The previously mentioned portent of miracle....

"Deep inside of you, exciting new ideas are finally starting to gel. If you keep a hopeful attitude and stay focused on the positive side of things, you should start to sense a new beginning coming soon. This could be the start of a special relationship that takes you in new directions. If you have been looking for a new romance, this could be it. You are definitely ready for the emotional challenge of it -- right now you are in a position to be an excellent partner."



Ummm..Suuurree! If you say so, I will buy it.( the relationship prediction) Despite everything, I am a romantic at heart. I used to believe in fate...that unseen force that brings two people together. It has happened twice in my life, and it felt very very right, but turned out wrong. These days the romantic is being tied down by reality....status financially, age, and insecurity, three giant whammies. It's still there..hopeful to the last, but I am not holding my breath anymore, -or- diving into something that may look right but is just another romantic blunder. I'll take the new hopeful beginning, yes indeed! I WANT THAT! ( I would at least attempt a cartwheel and a couple of somersaults) But Caution..is my byword towards men. Attaching my safety belt now..and it's wait and see.

(* wondering..if they can let me borrow the ropes they use for special effect fighting..I know I could cartwheel then..heh heh)

hugs,
k

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Amendment to this blog: All dating accounts closed. I will go with fate, and not force a new relationship. I feel I have had my chance at love, and will stay single until life sends someone my way, or not. My own self-expectations set me on a course I was not ready for, and later did not want at all. If God intends me to be alone then what will be will be. If it seems I am chickening out..I am not. Heart break and I are well acquainted, and I am not going to set myself up for another one by finding the wrong one.
k-7/19/11
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2 comments:

Anonymous said...

If you get those special ropes to help you with somersaults and cartwheels, I want to see the video...and not on YouTube!
Love you, Mel

is minx said...

If I get those ropes, I will end up in traction..lol. Just kidding, would likely be fun, even if I have sore muscles later.

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