It was a good night, fights, intoxication, medicals and a my first counterfeit bill report. Lol..what a fun life I lead! At the very least I can say that when I am a supervisor it's never boring. I run my tail off to keep up with someone else's very long legs. ( I used to think that I walked fast..HAH! It takes 10 of my steps to match someone's 2! -and I am still behind him.)
So today (my night) I am weary but happy. The night flew by, filled with characters You would not normally encounter in your days. If you did you'd very likely quickly walk away. Umm..no choice here but to deal with them, and it is good experience. There is no running just facing it and pushing it towards a good conclusion.
I never envisioned my life to take this direction. It was a job taken out of necessity because there was nothing else up here in this area for me. I never envisioned being on my own as I am right now either. In neither of these things was I really given a choice, it was handed to me and I had to accept it and deal with it, which seems to be a theme in my life of late.
Do I wish things had gone differently? Yes, quite often. But since they did not, this is what I have as my life. I could sit and be depressed or I can go and do. I have had more than enough of the depression and tears, it sucks, and I never want to be in that place again. So... you had a new start? At my expense, yes you did. Yes, You fixed all your problems by throwing me out of our house and your life. But hey, I am happy that you found a new job, I knew you deserved better in that respect.
I am reminded of a few pets that came to be part of my family at one time...they were throw aways....thrown out a door, out of a car...and they became part of our family, we took them in and loved them. This time it was me, thrown out by you and I am still wondering what I did to deserve that? I wrack my brain sometimes wondering what horrible thing I must have done to become unwanted overnight, and in every sense abandoned.
I did land on my feet, I landed quite hard, jolting all the way up. I am still trying to find a balance in this new life, as they say "all work and no play"..but it will happen eventually. I'm not so quick to replace what I had believed was real. That's your thing.
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Glad that you had a busy night, although I do wish you were feeling better, physically.
So, he has a new life? Wonder how long that will last? Actually, I really don't care how long it will last. He/She/Them are not important to me in any way, shape or form.
It will all tumble down, he will find someone else to blame for his problems. This time, it can't be you. A blessing for you!
You are finding your way in this world just fine! Taking some time, true, but you are still a work in progress! A book with blank pages waiting to be written. And, you are a fine author!
Love, Mel
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