A push towards normalcy

Not a lot to say tonight, my brain and body are running on auto-pilot. A required meeting scheduled when I normally would still be asleep, and the beginning of a battle over a cold that is invading me. On full attack mode, fluids, Vitamin C, soups and tissues..lol. ( this I believe I can blame on a soft heart...I helped out someone who was obviously in need of some rest with no place to stay, and made a pallet on my living room floor for them to catch some zzz's. Unfortunately, I was rewarded with germs..not sure how..they must have been contagious enough to leave a bug behind. I know it was not done on purpose..but Damn! I Really hate catching colds.)

I took a tiny step towards requesting normal hours this morning. Not sure if what I said will have any immediate effect, but I presented it nevertheless. Don't misunderstand, I really love the crew I have come to know on Grave shift, from management on down. But my days off are spent sleeping, a little cleaning, and not much else. I'd like to sleep when it's dark for a change, and be awake during the days to get out and about. Share time with friends which is difficult when you live a vampires life.

The work meeting was about workplace violence, something that most of us are already familiar with. There is always the potential for any disgruntled patron (or employee) to go over the edge. For the most part I use tone, empathy and never the "YOU" word..always "I". Being assertive does not have to cause someone to get pissed off, not if you are careful how you phrase your words, body posture, and facial expressions. True, more often than not they can push your button with constantly re-asking the same question of "what did I do wrong? Why do I have to leave?" Sometimes they just keep repeating it over and over. I will explain at least 3 times, and then I just get quiet and keep my compass pointed towards a safe departure for them and an end to the situation. Usually that works, but there are times it won't, and I know this.

How can we know exactly how a total stranger will react to being asked to leave? You cannot know. Surveillance and a buddy system help out a great deal. If there is even a possibility of trouble, there are usually two of us doing the job together. If that is not possible Food and Beverage have lent me a hand more than once by staying to provide a better margin of safety, and I really appreciate their help. They usually have the final word on visible signs of intoxication, if they say "yes" there is no other option than a walk out.

I am enjoying learning new skills, the challenge was desperately needed. I would like a better balance between my work and my personal life though. That was all I intended by putting in a bid for different hours.

Now, I have a cat who is trying to lay on my arms to prevent further typing, so I am off. Got to get ready for work, even though my body says rest would be good. Hugs to all.

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